Jousting

I don't know what's happened to me but recently, things that I really used to care about - stupid things - don't bother me so much anymore.

Like fighting with people, for instance. I simply don't have the energy for it. It's like jealousy - a wasted emotion.

It's pretty refreshing to put down your sword. I'd imagine it's even more refreshing to walk without your shield too. I'm working on that last one.

So, my mother and sisters are in Thailand and I can't tell you how much I wish I was there. God, I love traveling the world so much. I always want to be abroad or at least have trips planned. I didn't realize how spoiled I was in England, with their "five week" holidays a year and what not. I always had a trip planned, or some weekend away on the horizon.

Here, I got nothin'. No vacations to look forward to, no visits to a place where they don't use the Roman Alphabet on the agenda - just USA for now.

Not a bad thing, I guess. But definitely hard to get used to. I miss India, every day of my life. And I miss Cape Town probably every hour of my life.

So, what to do? Immerse myself in words I guess. Mine and other people's.

I've read some pretty inspiring things online recently - there are a lot of creative people out there. Thanks to all for distracting me from worrying me for things over which I have no control and making me focus on things of which I do have more control.

And the circle gets the square.